I arrived this morning for my lesson and only hacking RI was there. She said, RsO would be there soon and would I like to help do some hay nets. I said sure.
While we were packing the hay nets, RsO called to say her kids were not well and she wouldn’t be able to make it. So I was asked if I wanted a ride out instead which I took. I had nothing on today so didn’t mind.
We ordered some lunch and I brushed a mare I hadn’t brushed before. Then, we tacked up and went for a ride. I was on Bella! This did not go well at all. Bella and I are in a serious rut. We thought, that riding out with no one else around, she may like to let lose. Oh no! Let lose her marish behaviour on me was more like it! Asking for a canter across the field was like pulling teeth. She wouldn’t even trot, just kept plodding in a nice leisurely walk as though there was nothing else going on in her head.
I did get a few trots on her but no canters no matter what. I did get very frustrated and possibly have pulled some muscles as she had me working so hard! I was giving her my all, she was giving me very little.
We came back, I untacked her and felt completely deflated. I confided my feelings to my RI and she said not to feel so bad as she struggles with Bella and even last week felt like giving up on her. I know that feeling.
Anyway, started to brush Shadow, and then two other horses. My hacking RI was giving the RsO an update on the phone and RsO apparently said that she was glad I was brushing as she knows I do a good job and get all between their legs and under their tummies that some of the other girls sometimes neglect to do. That made me feel quite proud. For most of my life, I’ve been told I cannot do something as well as a sighted person but today I was told I can do something pretty good. It might not seem like a big thing but it was to me.
I loved being at the yard today. Helping and not being in someone’s way. I actually helped and made a small difference. If I could help every day, I probably would.
I guess my battle with Bella will continue. I don’t think I’ll ever get that horse. Despite the fact I like her a lot, she’s a fussy pony.
Thanks for reading,