I’m Proud of me!

It’s funny what can inspire some thoughts. This inspired me just now on a friend’s facebook status. “I’m not hot or gorgeous. I don’t have an amazing figure or a flat stomach. I’m far from being considered a model, but I’m ME!! I eat food, have curves, love my PJs, and will go without make up. I’m random, crazy, moody & I cuss but I don’t pretend to be someone I’m not. I am who I am, love me or not, it won’t change ME!!! Ladies put this on your status if your proud of who you are ;-” I got to thinking, I am very proud of who I am. I know a few years ago I could never say that and truly mean it but as I sit here today, I will proudly hold my hands up and say strongly with all the conviction in the world, I am proud of me. I’m real and honest and loyal if you’re a friend to me. I won’t stand no crap and I’m always well dressed. I don’t think I’m conceited just like to look nice but I don’t care if I get muddy or dirty, it’ll all come out in the wash. I sometimes feel like a true failure in the lack of a job department, but I am never idle and always try to do new things. I’m active and productive, even if I’m not getting paid. It’s a shame that my blogging and writing doesn’t provide me with money nor my horse related stuff just yet but I’m working on it. Despite all the rejections from employers and friends, I keep getting up again and attempting new things. I won’t run after people anymore and beg for their friendships, you either like me or you don’t. I’d rather be alone than have a ton of fake friends who don’t give a crap about me. I’ve accepted my blindness as a part of me, and if you don’t, then you need to get out and stay out of my life. I’m more positive nowadays, not to say I have complete positivity and think too much is a bad thing but I’m not as negative as a person than I was before. Despite all the crap others have put me through I won’t take my hurt out on others. I’m strong, opinionated, honest, reliable, healthy and I may not be outstanding in looks or what I do but I try to just be a good person and be me. It’s good to look at yourself and not hate who you are. I know I have been that way for a long time but no more. It’s not always my fault others treat me badly. I need to learn that accepting responsibility for everyone else won’t make them like me, nothing will and if they don’t, it’s OK, I’m better off without them. 🙂

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